xynix

Go read and be warned

http://arstechnica.com/news.ars/post/20070610-bittorrent-site-ordered-to-enable-server-logs-turn-them-over-to-mpaa.html

So I haven't updated in a while... let us see...

Horribly depressed again. I stopped taking my meds about 2 weeks ago now. Just couldn't continue forcing myself to take so many pills, to inject myself with lithium so often. I've had enough of as much. Yes I am unstable alot of the time without my medication, but I also get by. I've survived for 21 years, doubt that is just going to change over night.... well it could, but it hasn't so far. And at least now, the people whom I care about know how I can get even if they only know from what I have told them.

Work sucks, I hate it... meh, the people are pissing me off, the time of year makes it worse. My boss is a stupid whore, that believes degrading pep talks are the best way to motivate us. They STILL owe me $1k in back pay. And if I at least do not get that money this week, I will be quitting as it is just the icing on the cake.

Asked Lisa out, last week. Took alot, heh, but I still managed to ask. She said no, but from what she said it wasn't 'no because I don't feel the same way' just 'no, because you live on the other side of the planet'. Which I can completely understand, so things are still fine between us, if not better than before. Wish things were different, but eh... guess I can wait until I fly over ther (june/july next year ish) or until I fly her here. Either way, should be nice.

Missy franny, but I don't really have the time anymore to keep in touch with her, outside of when she can get online... meh. It sucks, I'd love to be able to keep talking to her as much as I used to... but with the day light savings change, I simply cant sit up to a point where I can call her on her breaks at school anymore. Myeh.. might call her later on, who knows.

No Uni this week, have a week off before tests... decided to listen to a family member and spend some time in the sun for once. It resulted in me passing out, getting up 30 minutes later, getting back into my room and fainting. Heat stroke FTL. Called into work sick because of as much, heh. Spent the better part of the afternoon/evening asleep.. woke up 3 times, feverish, bad headache, parched throat etc. Then went back to sleep... heading back to bed shortly actually.

Flying down to sydney next week, on wednesday... not sure if I really want to go.. scared to death of the idea of what I am doing, heh. The theory is, lets fly down to sydney to stay with someone I know for 5 days, just to attend a party full of people whom I do NOT know, outside an online game/aim/msn... as well as their friends. meh.. just going to tough it out I guess... while hiding away from people I don't know.. heh.

Meh.. probably other shit I should vent.. but who knows, I am just going to go back to watching house before I sleep.

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I have slowly added various people over time, they know who I am, I know who they are, so it works.